jello

its funny how you could know someone for years but still discover something you never noticed before.

when so many are lonely as seem to be lonely, it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone.

yours truly

vvvvvv

so ive been thinking lately.. whats the point in hanging on? whats the point in hanging on when you know that all you'll get is a bunch of shit ass crappy excuses in the end? if you dont wanna do it, why keep pretending like you wanna be together when actually in your mind you just wanna use that person in all ways possible? and when you dont need that someone, you just chuck him aside or push him away, or hurt him like hell. and when you need him your all over him and treat him so nice that make him think that you actually wanna be with him. whats the point? does it really feel good doing it to someone? even tough you dont love him anymore? i dont get people sometimes. i really dont.

do you feel the cold wind whisper? do you ever cower when the clock strikes past the hour? is there anything more deafening? are you hanging on for hope? it's all you've got worth living for. is it much too much to cope the road out? there's a tension when we speak. the income's overrated but it's worth it when we meet on common ground.

yours truly

troyyyyyyy

Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity. And so we ask ourselves; will our actions echo across the centuries? Will strangers hear our names long after we are gone, and wonder who we were, how bravely we fought, how fiercely we loved?

rain rain go away, come again another day. all the world is waiting for the sun.

yours truly

life is a journey, one that is much better traveled with a companion by our side. but sometimes, we lose our companions along the way, and then the journey becomes unbearable. yes, life is a journey. one that is much better traveled with a companion by our side. of course, that companion can be just about anyone. a neighbor on the other side of the street or the man on the other side of the bed. the companion can be a mother with good intentions or a child who's up to no good. still, despite our best intentions, some of us will lose our companions along the way. and then the journey becomes unbearable. you see, human beings are designed for many things, but loneliness isn't one of them.

i understand now, there will always be those who face their fears, and there will always be those who run away.

yours truly

are you true?

ive seen many different people in life. some greet you in the morning with intentions and bad motives. some say hello out of courtesy, yet speak of something else behind you. some greet you because they want you to get something done for them. and some, very few, greet you out of politeness. yes, there are many different people on earth, the trick is choosing the right person to associate with. no one likes having friends with bad motives, but sometimes we ourselves need a little help, and when we seek it, its then we'll only see who our true friends really are.

to be nobody-but-yourself - in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.

yours truly

you could drive a person crazy

if you look beneath the veneer of gracious living, you will see a battle raging, a battle for control. you see the combatants everywhere, engaged in their routine skirmishes, fighting fiercely to have dominion over the world around them, all the while knowing, it's a battle they will lose. control. it's extraordinary the tactics people employ to obtain it. some rely on deception. while others engage in outright trickery. then there are those who resort to extortion. why do we fight so hard for control? because we know to lose it is to put our fate in the hands of others. and what could be more dangerous?

how do you know when how much is too much? too much too soon. too much information. too much fun. too much love. too much to ask... and when is it all just too much to bear?

yours truly

thats good , thats bad.

it's not always that easy to distinguish the good guys from the bad guys. sinners can surprise you. and the same is true for saints.why do we try to define people as simply good or simply evil? because no one wants to admit that compassion and cruelty can live side by side in one heart. and that anyone is capable of anything.

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

yours truly

sisterhood

HAHA wtf i think these are damn funny. what would i be without my crazy buncha sisters.

yours truly

yours truly

sillypeople

the world is filled with unlikely friendships. odd pairings that to the casual observer make absolutely no sense at all. but if you look closer, we can see why these alliances form. after all, a shared purpose can give even mortal enemies common ground. the world is filled with unlikely friendships. how do they begin? with one person desperately in need and another willing to lend a helping hand. when such kindness is offered, we're finally able to see the worth of those we had previously written off. and before we know it, a bond has formed, regardless of whether others can understand it. yes, unlikely friendships start up every day. no one understands this more than the lonely. in fact, it's what they count on.

the choice to separate from what we love is painful. the only thing worse is when someone we've trusted makes the choice for us.

yours truly

colour and light

cameras are simple tools designed to capture images. images that tell us more about ourselves than we realize. they remind us of the long journey we've taken. the loved ones who traveled alongside of us. those we lost along the way. and those waiting for us on the road ahead. yes, cameras are tools designed to capture images. but in truth, they can capture so much more. they can uncover hidden longing of men who should no longer care. they can reveal the extraordinary secrets of the most ordinary. most amazing of all, cameras can quietly and clearly reveal to us our dreams. dreams we didn't even know we had.

no one can shut everyone out all their lives. at some point on some level, they have to take a chance and let someone in.

yours truly

pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. there are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.

there's something to be said about a glass half full. about knowing when to say when. sometimes all we want is a taste. other times there's no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless. and all we want, is more.

yours truly

colour and light

are you ever afraid of rejection? of losing someone you hold so dear. or being ignored? sometimes you wanna let the truth out so badly, but you know you can't, because there's always a consequence. and if you dont take the chance, you'll look back 20 years later and only wonder what if.
everyone enjoys a game of make-believe now and then. of course, the ways in which we play can vary greatly. sometimes, we imagine certain relationships to be more meaningful than they really are. occasionally, we put on a show, as if to convince ourselves our secrets aren't really all that terrible. yes, the game of make-believe is a simple one. you start by lying to yourself, and if you can get others to believe those lies, you win.

wish you'd been careful with my heart

yours truly

maybe we're not supposed to be happy. maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. appreciating small victories. admiring the struggle it takes to simply be human. maybe, we're thankful for the familiar things we know. and maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. at the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.

but people so rarely stop to take a look. they just keep moving. it's a shame, really. there's so much to see.

yours truly

the sun wont set

in a world filled with darkness, we all need some kind of light. whether it's a great flame that shows us how to win back what we've lost, or a powerful beacon intended to scare away potential monsters, or a few glowing bulbs that reveal to us the hidden truth of our past. we all need something to help us get through the night. even if it's just the tiniest glimmer of hope.

yours truly

wc !

okayy. so havent been really really blogging lately. was kinda cheating. oh wells. anyways. ITALY WON THE FREAKING WORLD CUP! extremely unexpected. haha. i totally din like em at first, because they beat australia's ass by a not supposed to be penalty. totally unfair. oh wells. but i guess i preferred them to france. cs france beat spain in the round of 16. my poor david villa and fernando torres. spain should have gotten through. den i would have been for spain all the way! but ohk. france did beat spain. and this morning was the finals.but i missed the 90 mins though, woke up only during extra time. ahem cs mr ho jeremy didnt wake me. haha. its ok. i forgive you. stop apologising kukubird! ohk anyways. i totally didnt get wtf zidane was doing la. seirously, if you had watched it, i bet you'd have laughed your freaking saggy ass off. something malfunction in his body. ok so what he did was, he thought one of marco materazzi's tit was the ball and headed away! but i guess italians dont die so easily. ok that doesnt really describe what he did but just go to soccernet.com and there might be pictures of him attempting murder. so with no midfield, france played on like a doughnut. and italy won 5-3 on penalties. forza italia!


we all honor heroes for different reasons. sometimes for their daring, sometimes for their bravery, sometimes for their goodness. but mostly we honor heroes because at one point or another, we all dream of being rescued. of course, if the right hero doesn't come along, sometimes we just have to rescue ourselves.

yours truly

karma

karma. it gets us all the time. its only in a matter of time that one faces it. it comes back and remind us of what we've done to hurt those we love or even if its those that we dont. no one can get away with doing wrong. all sorts of wrong. like when you betray a trust of a friendship. or when you say something hurtful and yet still think your in the right position. and its ok if you regret the things you've said or done and admit that you're in the wrong, but if you dont, den god knows where your heart and conscience are. and its karma that punishes you for what you've wrong. something most of us cant do. and when karma gets you. if you dont realise your mistake and continue what you've been doing all these past years. den hats off to you because i dont know how someone can lead such a hypocritical life and go round killing your friends at the back one by one. i seriously dont.

yours truly

it wanst meant to happen

i think we all need a little hope sometimes. you know? like when your having little faith in yourself and when your on the verge of breaking down, and giving up. and when we throw all possibilities out the back door. and hope comes when we least expects it to, when we need it the most. it pulls us up on our feet again and gets us back on track in our lives. yes, we all need a little hope now and then. and sometimes we take for granted that its always gonna be there to save us from falling into a hole. but we never consider what will happen when hope isnt there anymore to blanket our falls. and then the real question is,can we learn to bounce back from failure and pick ourselves up and start over when all hope is lost?


there is a prayer intended to give strength to people faced with circumstances they dont want to accept. the power of the prayer comes from it's insight into human nature. because so many of us rage against the hand that life has dealt us. because so many of us are cowardly. and afraid to stand up for what is right. because so many of us give into despair when faced with an impossible choice. the good news for those who utter these words is that god will hear you and answer your prayer. the bad news is that sometimes the answer is no.

yours truly

i know things now

when the truth is ugly, people try to keep it hidden, because they know the damage it will do. so they conceal it within sturdy walls or they place it behind closed doors or they obscure it with clever disguises. but the truth, no matter how ugly it is, always emerges. and someone we care about always ends up getting hurt. and someone else will revel in their pain and that's the ugliest truth of all.

we have all made mistakes that diminish us and those we love. but there is redemption if we try to learn from those mistakes and grow.

yours truly

move on

we are all searching for someone. that special person who will provide us whats missing in our lives. someone who can offer companionship or assistance or security. and sometimes if we search very hard, we can find someone who provides us with all three. yes, we are all searching for someone. and if we cant find them, we can only pray they find us.

yours truly

summer romances are often ephemeral in their nature. you commit yourself recklessly to a relationship with strangers in a foreign land, willingly seduced by their exotic swagger and charm, blind to any faults that may lurk beneath the surface. as quickly as this love has blossomed, however, it dies on the vine. inevitably you catch them cheating. a lot.
sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. and when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. the world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. we can only lie to ourselves for so long. we are tired, we are scared, denying it doesnt change the truth. sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. head on, guns blazing. de nile. it's not just a river in egypt, its a freaking ocean. so how do you keep from drowning in it?

yours truly

Dr. Meredith Grey

faith is a funny thing. it turns up when you dont really expect it. its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. the castle, well, it may not be a castle. and its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. see once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

i dont know why we put things off, but if i had to guess, id have to say it has a lot to do with fear. fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if youre wrong? what if youre making a mistake you cant undo? the early bird catches the worm. a stitch in time saves nine. he who hesitates is lost. we cant pretend we hadnt been told. we have all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. we have to make our own mistakes. we have to learn our own lessons. we have to sweep todays possibility under tomorrows rug until we can't anymore. until we finally understand for ourselves. that knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beats the hell out of never trying.

yours truly

Dr. Meredith Grey

at the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. some things you say cause there's no other choice. some things you keep to yourself. and not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

yours truly

Dr. Meredith Grey

at some point, you have to make a decision. boundaries dont keep other people out. they fence you in. life is messy. that's how we're made. so, you can waste your lives drawing lines. or you can live your life crossing them. but there are some lines.. that are way too dangerous to cross.

yours truly

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